You are not alone

For about a 2 years now ive had depression and been self harming and it became a addiction then i found vapes and cannibis and yes i am a minor and i also came addicted to nicotine i got caught and i felt si ashamed of myself and my mom has stage 4 lung cancer and that was hard and i was and still am struggling poorly with money and keeping a house and i stared having random panic attacks at random times my dad was and is verbally abusive and so is my mom and i took everything they said to me to heart i would cry in the bathroom floor eating every melatonin there was in the cabinet hoping when i went to sleep i wouldn't wake back up and i told my brother because i told a couple close friends because i needed to vent but not family he said " Your trying to get attention" that broke me. I cryed myself to sleep to let u know that was around a week ago and if u EVER think"im the only one who is going through this" i promise u ur not.