I don't get you
You really are love bombing me.
Using me for your selfish entertainment.
I bore you if I don't pick a topic.
We don't talk if I don't speak first.
You say you like being with me, but you don't atleast pretend you have an ounce of interest in me.
Then once I'm gone you go begging.
Tell me.
Are you always like this?
I've tried talking to you.
I asked you questions and you answered them honestly.
But I'm starting to have doubts.
Are you really being honest?
Are you dishonest to me? Or yourself?
You never keep your word.
You don't even seem like you're trying.
I'm sorry;
I always talk about myself. I want to know about you aswell, but you don't want to. Do you really not trust me?
I vent to you all of a sudden, I didn't mean to, I just wanted someone to listen. You didn't have to use words to comfort me. I just wanted you to understand.
I might say mean words to you without realizing. We both bond like that right? But I might have hurt your feelings sometimes. I try to watch my words.
I have shown disinterest in the thing's you like, I have my opinions but I could've atleast considered.
We've been friends for such a long time, meeting with you online was very fun. We once dated but you tricked me, and still I forgiven you because it was funny, I found you entertaining. You and I were shy but we bonded with role-playing, I found it silly whenever you made rp accounts and role-played with yourself pretending that other account was an actual person.
We talk stories about each others lives especially about myself,you barely open up to me.
It's been 2020 - 2021 - 2022 -2023— four complete years we've been best friends. And there has not been a successful progress.
Please be honest with me.
I don't want to point it out like it's your fault- you always apologise when I talk to you about things like this. It's never your fault.
I know you have trust issues. I know things aren't easy for you. But please don't be like this. You're so cold to me. One moment you're so energetic and happy, the next you are dead silent. I know sometimes we fight alot and then at the end you apologise because I'm overly sensitive. I think this friendship is bad. We are polar opposites and still have similar taste and experiences. And still I can't help but say " I hate you " and I mean it. But still " I care for you ".
We both are growing up but you are still the same. After realizing everything. I really really hate you. I wanted to cut things off. I did try. It lasted long– but only for two months. I couldn't resist either, I liked the way you posted so much about me, I stalk your account and see the things all about me. I liked the attention. It made me happy, how much I matter to you. It almost made me cry that you cry. I couldn't help it, I contacted you again- unblocked you and apologised and everything went back to normal. We talked alot like how we used to. Laughed like how we used to. Fought in a joking matter like how we used to.
But now. We're back to square one.
You don't talk as much.
You don't text me if I don't text first.
Everything's awkward to you If I don't pick a proper topic.
If I don't talk about myself it's all just bland.
We love differently but I honestly cannot understand you.
That's where I now think.
I don't like you anymore.
You don't either.
It's all just for our selfish entertainment. For me to brag and for you to listen.
It's annoying. But it can't be helped.
I think I am love bombing you.
Using me for your selfish entertainment.
I bore you if I don't pick a topic.
We don't talk if I don't speak first.
You say you like being with me, but you don't atleast pretend you have an ounce of interest in me.
Then once I'm gone you go begging.
Tell me.
Are you always like this?
I've tried talking to you.
I asked you questions and you answered them honestly.
But I'm starting to have doubts.
Are you really being honest?
Are you dishonest to me? Or yourself?
You never keep your word.
You don't even seem like you're trying.
I'm sorry;
I always talk about myself. I want to know about you aswell, but you don't want to. Do you really not trust me?
I vent to you all of a sudden, I didn't mean to, I just wanted someone to listen. You didn't have to use words to comfort me. I just wanted you to understand.
I might say mean words to you without realizing. We both bond like that right? But I might have hurt your feelings sometimes. I try to watch my words.
I have shown disinterest in the thing's you like, I have my opinions but I could've atleast considered.
We've been friends for such a long time, meeting with you online was very fun. We once dated but you tricked me, and still I forgiven you because it was funny, I found you entertaining. You and I were shy but we bonded with role-playing, I found it silly whenever you made rp accounts and role-played with yourself pretending that other account was an actual person.
We talk stories about each others lives especially about myself,you barely open up to me.
It's been 2020 - 2021 - 2022 -2023— four complete years we've been best friends. And there has not been a successful progress.
Please be honest with me.
I don't want to point it out like it's your fault- you always apologise when I talk to you about things like this. It's never your fault.
I know you have trust issues. I know things aren't easy for you. But please don't be like this. You're so cold to me. One moment you're so energetic and happy, the next you are dead silent. I know sometimes we fight alot and then at the end you apologise because I'm overly sensitive. I think this friendship is bad. We are polar opposites and still have similar taste and experiences. And still I can't help but say " I hate you " and I mean it. But still " I care for you ".
We both are growing up but you are still the same. After realizing everything. I really really hate you. I wanted to cut things off. I did try. It lasted long– but only for two months. I couldn't resist either, I liked the way you posted so much about me, I stalk your account and see the things all about me. I liked the attention. It made me happy, how much I matter to you. It almost made me cry that you cry. I couldn't help it, I contacted you again- unblocked you and apologised and everything went back to normal. We talked alot like how we used to. Laughed like how we used to. Fought in a joking matter like how we used to.
But now. We're back to square one.
You don't talk as much.
You don't text me if I don't text first.
Everything's awkward to you If I don't pick a proper topic.
If I don't talk about myself it's all just bland.
We love differently but I honestly cannot understand you.
That's where I now think.
I don't like you anymore.
You don't either.
It's all just for our selfish entertainment. For me to brag and for you to listen.
It's annoying. But it can't be helped.
I think I am love bombing you.
