Disgusting

I cant even explain how much i hate my dad. Its at the point where i don't even wanna admit hes my dad. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hope he dies. He doesn't even have any responsibility for his own child like bruh??? Hard to believe but its real. Im telling you, if i got into an accident and missed my bus, he would care about the ticket bus money instead of my safety. This actually happened before. I really wish he would die soon, for real. He control me, my money, what i would wear, who I'll meet. God i cant even- I HATE HIM. If hes on a bad mood, he wouldn't even care about our foods and clothes. Heck, since mom passed away 7 years ago he never buy me any clothes. AT ALL. i wanna cry... I have hypokalemia, and i got into ward often. Once i got discharged, he would scold and yell me because of the money he pay for my medical care. At this point im just begging that anyone would adopt me... I wanna die.. I wanna die so badly i dont wanna live in this world like this.