Disgusting

I cant even explain how much i hate my dad. Its at the point where i don't even wanna admit hes my dad. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hope he dies. He doesn't even have any responsibility for his own child like bruh??? Hard to believe but its real. Im telling you, if i got into an accident and missed my bus, he would care about the ticket bus money instead of my safety. This actually happened before. I really wish he would die soon, for real. He control me, my money, what i would wear, who I'll meet. God i cant even- I HATE HIM. If hes on a bad mood, he wouldn't even care about our foods and clothes. Heck, since mom passed away 7 years ago he never buy me any clothes. AT ALL. i wanna cry... I have hypokalemia, and i got into ward often. Once i got discharged, he would scold and yell me because of the money he pay for my medical care. At this point im just begging that anyone would adopt me... I wanna die.. I wanna die so badly i dont wanna live in this world like this.

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Idontknowwhattodoanymore · 16-17, F

I hate my father too, I don't call him dad and I call him by his name and even that disgusts me. I'm 14 and my father is abusive and many different ways, I've cut him out of my life as much as I can at this time. I'm sorry your mother has passed away, I know on your profile it says you're 18-21 so you probably won't care what a 14 year old has to say but I'll say it anyway. Neglect is horrible and as someone with 2 neglectful parents I feel as though my say counts for something even a little bit. I don't really have advice as I'm only 14 but I can say that it'll be ok, you'll get through it. I know because my older siblings had to deal with the same father I have and they've turned out as wonderful competent people as I'm sure you're/you'll be. I know this doesn't help you and you might not even read all of this but don't die please, people need you, even people you haven't met yet, they need you and you need them. Have an amazing day and I hope this helps even a little bit :)