I’m so ugly and I just want to become prettier like my friends are.

I’m so ugly compared to all my friends. I know this is jealousy and it’s not good but I can’t help it. My eyelids are uneven and my eyes and just my whole face is ugly. My hair makes it worse too. I never have a good hair day and I’ve tried a lot of things but they don’t work that well in the end. It’s always frizzy and even if it looks okay in the morning, by the end of the day it looks horrible and it’s so embarrassing to go to school. My friends, on the other hand, are all so pretty. Nice hair that is silky and stays that way the whole school day. Beautiful faces and bodies. Amazing personalities and everyone likes them. Talkative, kind, caring, smart, funny, etc. My personality is horrible. I don’t even know why they’re friends with me. If I tell someone they also tell me that “nooo you’re so pretty too, you look good” but I know that it’s just lies to not be mean and straightforward. I just want to be prettier. I’ve grown to hate myself so much and I always try not to cry when I see myself at school in the mirror. I know no one would actually end up liking me romantically bc of my looks. I don’t think people know I am struggling this much with this and many other problems I’m having right now but to be honest, I don’t really think they’d care. Everyone is always struggling with something on their own and I shouldn’t burden them with something that Isn’t even that bad compared to what others experience, but this one time I need to vent on some random website that I found. Thanks for reading to the end? If someone has tips for hair or how to look prettier, please tell me.