Tired of everything

I’m so tired I feel like I’m not good enough I’ve been balancing out work, academics, sports and trying to find my self worth and confidence again and it’s hard. I keep being reminded that I’m not good enough and from my own mom she’s always making little comments and picking at me expecting even more and taking down what ever confidence I found again

I don’t like being around friends or people in general anymore with the exception of a few people but I still feel lonely at the same time. I wanna try making new friends to make up for the ones I no longer enjoy being around but going from shy to anti social to social again is hard I don’t know how to talk to people without the fear of seeming annoying.

School sucks even more no matter how hard I work it just never seems good enough I finish my mountain of work just to get even more I do tests just to fail them I don’t know how I have A’s still but at this point I’m burning myself out for those A’s

I have no one to talk to about my problems because I don’t wanna seem annoying and they never seem to have time for me even if they say I can come to them with my problems only to not be there.