yay another vent

I'm really not doing good atm and I want to talk to some1 abt it. So let's get started. I'm so scared that I will gain more weight . I don't know hy. I don't think that people who weight more are ugly. Actually it's quite the opposite. I think people who weight more are attractive. But still. I was going through a lot of stress recently and I gained like 2 kg. I know many people would might think that this isn't bad at all. But it's like the end of the world for me. But I still can't get myself to eat less for some reason. Everytime I look into the mirror I get the urge to cry or worse.It's not just my body. It's also my face. I think my nose is too long, my skin isn't clear enough or my face is too long. I can't talk to any1 abt it. People would say I'm dramatic or I should just not care about stuff like that. But I do. Everytime I'm on a picture and I don't look good I keep looking at that picture. I keep looking and looking. And everytime I am just so mad. Why can't I be pretty? Why do I have to use makeup to even be able to leave the house? It's just not fair.