i feel lonely
Im so jelous of people who have friends, im happy for them tho, i wouldnt want anyone to feel what i felt. It just looks really fun to hang out with someone, i dont mind if ill just have one friend, as long as i have one that im really close with then thats fine, i can live with that. My classmates went to this one horror house thing at our school, i didnt have anyone to go with, that day was supposed to be fun, atleast i thought so, but i ended up just trying to keep myself together and trying not to cry. I like being alone, really, it calms me, but "feeling" alone doesnt feel great, sometimes i just imagine that im with someone so i wouldnt feel that lonely. Nonetheless, im sure ill finally have a friend one day