Idk, just gonna do a quick little venting ig.

I don't really know why I am here, I guess its because I don't know who to talk to. My mom and dad have been divorced for many years but there have been episodes where they would fight physically and the police needed to come. My mom has a new husband, he's always been around and he is like a second father, but when he drinks its like he's gone, he docent physically hurt us in any way its more verbally. Lately I have been struggling to trust people, even tho they want to help me. My anxiety has gotten worse and I really don't know what i'm going to do. I just feel this pressure on me, cause my plants have such high expectations they want me to do good in school and be better than them. But I don't even think Im I can be here any longer. I have friends I just don't want to bother them, cause they have their own things to worry about, so mostly I just go to sleep at like 4 am then wake up and go to school and act happy. Its draining tbh. (girl from 2009)