I Hate My Life

Im a 11 year old gurl, i know im young. im mature for my age. I am suicidal and i do self harm. life is just so sad and made me feel like I want to leave this world. everything i do is not enough. they only notice my mistakes. my father doesn't even care for me he left me when i was still a child. my father gave me a trauma i can't forget. my mother pressures me to study i even get 30 minutes of sleep just to study. other members of my family hates me too.my friends don't even listen to me too. they just think im pretending for attention. i just want to feel loved. and theres this one kid at school that spreads information that i was bullying him while its the opposite he bullys me for having no dad and him being smarter than me. im just so sick of my life, i want to die so i could have a new life and itd be a great life..