i don't know

I just don't know what to do anymore, it's getting so hard everyday just to breathe, smile, getting out of bed, or do anything. school take that abilities away from me, i go to this prestigious school but I don't think i deserve to be in it, the teachers hates me. friends? they were wonderful but i'm afraid they already tired of me, bcs I'm so unstable. now the headmaster called my parents and talked about grades and i just idk, I don't want to live anymore. i saw how tired they are, why am i such a burden. I'm such a failure, i need to kms