so much is happening so fast

My family is moving soon, i am rapidly losing friends, and i can't focus on anything. My mom keeps using things like 'were the parents' and 'you're still just a teenager' and i hate it. We have two dogs, and my family struggles to take care of them but won't rehome them or do anything about it, despite recognising that they're causing us nothing but trouble. My stepdad is mentally abusive and hate a respect-based god complex, demanding we show him respect even when we're treated like maids. I have feelings for my best friend, but she's older & dating someone so I'm locked in heartache. A girl got really close to me, then did a 180 and started dating someone else. My stepsister is no better than her dad and is just constantly an ass about everything from our chores to food. My older sister is going into the air force in September, we're probably moving by the end of march, and my life is coming crashing down on me. I have (not specifying) physical and mental health issues, nut my mom refuses to go to a dentist or doctor, or pay for real therapy. Both my mom and my stepdad drink and smoke weed, and spend ballpark 100$ a month that could be used for something else. My dad and stepmom, who are both way nicer, live five hours away and i only get to see them once every six months. I shut myself away from my family, and they wonder why i never talk to them, but they constantly insult me over and over again, and I'm almost out of real love to show. I don't, contrary to most teens or people in my town (including my stepsister), have any issues with weed or alcohol, or any form of drugs, and i don't self harm, but I can't bring myself to get out of bed most days.

I know all of this is a hot mess to read I'm sorry i just needed to get it off my chest.

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PinkPunkFlamingo · 22-25, T

I'm sorry all these changes are going on in your life right now, I know how it feels to lose everything and being alone even when they're people who say they are there for you but barely care for your emotions. It's frustrating, lonely, and makes you feel worthless. Just know that your not completely alone, sometimes the best is to focus only in yourself and forget your part of a family, go after friends and make your own family and path. In won't be easy either, may be harder than dealing with your nightmare blood family but at least you can say you made something for yourself. You made your own path, you made friends and that may take you to a future. That's what I've been trying to do in the last few months but believe me, it inst easy, tho it could be worst.

Sjones13 · 41-45, M

It’s ok to vent to us. We’re here to help in any way we can. I know moving at your age is tough but I believe you’ll make new friends at your new school

BracedAce · 18-21

@Sjones13 we're probably staying in town and I've moved nine times in 14 years

Sjones13 · 41-45, M

@BracedAce If you’d like to message me feel free to. I’m a good listener

PinkPunkFlamingo · 22-25, T

@BracedAce I know how you feel. You see, ever since I was a child I haven't stayed in one school for more than a year, one time I changed school 3 times in the same year. The only time I got the chance to actually stay in the same school and make friends was in my last two years of elementary school, then the three years of highschool. When I was in the last year's of elementary school I made actual friends and didn't feel lonely, I had their backs and they had mine, but when I entered high school I lost all of them and made terrible friends who didn't care for me. I still haven't recovered, proof is I'm now in college for five years (because I couldn't finish it in four like people normally do) and I haven't created any special bond with any of my close colleagues even tho I want it. But you see, even tho it's hard sometimes there are rewards, being recognized by someone out of your family springs a little joy and pride you never knew existed in yourself. So, I know it's though and I won't lie saying things will get better, but it's worth to try.

TeirdalinFirefall · 31-35, M

Yeah that's how life is.

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