istg im gonna snap and idk what ill say or do

I can relate. I'll speak from experience. I had friends like yours, they made me feel trapped, I always wanted to leave them but I was worried to be alone. But guess what. I did it, I left them and I'm doing so much better. My social anxiety is clearing up, my mental health is clearing up, I'm starting to love myself more and I'm able to let myself grow. I've found ways to make me happy alone, and I'm not ashamed of it at all. And my grades have been better. And not having friends has made me consider my parents as friends, which helped me out, and it's okay if you are not able to have that kind of relationship with your parents, but you can love yourself. My one advice, foe you is to do what I did. Leave your friends. Settle on your own. Be strong and relaxed, things will be better that way 💕