What should I do….

I’m not going to go into details so here my mom is a math teacher…. And my school is still new so we are 4 girls but at first we were 3 and I was the top student until t he 4th student came I was helping her studying and all this so we had an exam I brought 38/40 and she brought 39/40 so my mom got mad at how she get higher than me even though she is still new and I felt jealous of her….. cuz my mom kept comparing me and so on after this one time my mom have hit me infront of the class cuz of one question I felt embarrassed and everything so I cried like imagine getting hit infront ur class by ur mom and she started calling me failure cuz that question and told me how the 4th student is better than me even thought she is new and above that I WAS THE ONE WHO HELPED HER TO PASS so I felt jealousy and wanted to just disappear and my mom kept telling me that being 2nd place is a failure place and I should keep being the top student and ever since she brought a higher mark I got jealous and my mom punished me for that… so what do I do ? But I don’t hate the 4th student I want her to pass and everything she is sweet but my mom made me jealous of her cuz of that sweet little mark that made a whole differences…..

Om2014 · 31-35, M

I think given the situation, ur mother needs to be talked to not u.. u r right whatever ur going thru n feeling.. that much competition n breeding jealousy among students is unhealthy.. even for a parent. Trust me we will be second almost every where in our life in all the aspects, we just see a few bunch of people around us and if we somehow go past them n progress beyond we feel big, inflated ego n haughtiness follows... But if we just look further we will find we are still lagging behind.. and for almost every other subject other than ur expertise u definitely stand way back.. so always try to be humble and work hard.. that's it.. life doesn't reward slackness. Do ur best. Cause that's what u can most do