idk what to do

i don’t know what to do so much happened . i feel sick. i still can’t believe it. i cried my eyes out at funeral but now i feel dissociated. idk what to do. i need help i don’t want to keep doing thai but idk what else to do. i don’t want to catch the train because of my family i love them all so much and i miss you, i miss you so much every day
i keep thinking about u and i just miss u so much. i will have birthday in 3 days and u were supposed to visit us. i’m so sad when i think about how u will not be there on my birthday u won’t send me a postcard i will not receive a call from u. i miss u and i’m so sorry. i hope u know i love u so much.