first vs second love

hey everyone, i hope you're having a good day.
i'm going to try to keep this short.
my relationship with my first love was toxic and my relationship with my second love is extremely healthy.
i love my boyfriend, i really do but there are times when i think about my ex and what we could be.
i feel so bad for my boyfriend because i know he loves me with all his heart.
i don't know what to do, i really need some advice so please share your thoughts. i'm still young so all this "love" bs is new to me and extremely confusing, lol.

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LadyGrace ·

You answered your own question. Why would you want to go back with a toxic boyfriend? If it was meant to be, it would have stuck. Be grateful you got away from a toxic person and found someone who loves you without trying to control you. This is a true blessing. I think you would be very sorry if you went back to that. And it makes me wonder if you love your boyfriend now because if you did and were satisfied with that relationship, why would this other guy be in your mind? Perhaps it's only that you're feeling guilty that you left him or vice versa I don't know, but it would be a big mistake to go back to a toxic relationship.