Just venting again..
i shouldn't listen to my mother 6 years ago. she can't even understand Chinese but send me to sekolah beraliran and pick aliran cina for me.
now i couldn't go to my dream school. i regret listening to her. I'll never make my dreams come true if i keep being goody two shoes. the people who keeps crushing my dreams until now keep blaming on me for everything. i didn't do anything i just listened and do their order. my dream literally crushed in front of my eyes. they keep telling me to follow their dreams but i didn't want to. all i want is my dream. i didn't get into "some international" school because i don't want to go to that school cuz it's their dreams. MY PARENTS DREAMS NOT MINE. my teacher once told me "follow your dreams , other people dreams" my parents keep saying I'm stupid and shits to not catching on my dreams meanwhile it's their dream. and they even keep saying that i don't follow their rules perfectly like my neighbor daughter WELL I'M SORRY I'M NOT PERFECT. I CAN'T BE LIKE HER AND I DON'T FREAKING WANT TO SHE'S SO FREAKING FAKE , PATHETIC AND DISCOURTEOUS. that was yesterday.
okay let's talk about what my parents do today. i fake my sleep this morning, i was about to wake up but i heard them talking about me. i hv to fake my sleep to listen to their conversation. they talk shit about me mostly my mom. they say I'm stupid and more. WELL IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT THEY SEND ME TO CHINESE NATIONAL SCHOOL IN MALAYSIA. I'M NOT EVEN MALAYSIAN CHINESE I'm Malaysian malay. she don't even understand Chinese a little bit and now she force me to 100% understand it. if i don't do her order she might abuse me like punching me in the face and beating me up like a teenage high schoolers. I'm a teenage high schoolers too but I don't fight like her. in fact I don't even fight with anyone. she hated me so much idek. I don't even have any siblings and ykw she treat my cousin better. I'm like nothing to her NOTHING. I'm tired.
now i couldn't go to my dream school. i regret listening to her. I'll never make my dreams come true if i keep being goody two shoes. the people who keeps crushing my dreams until now keep blaming on me for everything. i didn't do anything i just listened and do their order. my dream literally crushed in front of my eyes. they keep telling me to follow their dreams but i didn't want to. all i want is my dream. i didn't get into "some international" school because i don't want to go to that school cuz it's their dreams. MY PARENTS DREAMS NOT MINE. my teacher once told me "follow your dreams , other people dreams" my parents keep saying I'm stupid and shits to not catching on my dreams meanwhile it's their dream. and they even keep saying that i don't follow their rules perfectly like my neighbor daughter WELL I'M SORRY I'M NOT PERFECT. I CAN'T BE LIKE HER AND I DON'T FREAKING WANT TO SHE'S SO FREAKING FAKE , PATHETIC AND DISCOURTEOUS. that was yesterday.
okay let's talk about what my parents do today. i fake my sleep this morning, i was about to wake up but i heard them talking about me. i hv to fake my sleep to listen to their conversation. they talk shit about me mostly my mom. they say I'm stupid and more. WELL IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT THEY SEND ME TO CHINESE NATIONAL SCHOOL IN MALAYSIA. I'M NOT EVEN MALAYSIAN CHINESE I'm Malaysian malay. she don't even understand Chinese a little bit and now she force me to 100% understand it. if i don't do her order she might abuse me like punching me in the face and beating me up like a teenage high schoolers. I'm a teenage high schoolers too but I don't fight like her. in fact I don't even fight with anyone. she hated me so much idek. I don't even have any siblings and ykw she treat my cousin better. I'm like nothing to her NOTHING. I'm tired.
