I promise you are worthwhile, even if you are not carrying other people’s burdens. If you are not working overtime to look after other people, you are still worthy. Other people’s mental health is not your responsibility. I promise you are worthy, just as you are. I’m so sorry that you are doing through this. Please give yourself permission to look after you for a while, and not other people.

Go see a real therapist. I started seeing one at 16 and have been goin on and off for the rest of my life. It’s helpful for certain phases of growing up. Everyone carries some sort of weight; you don’t have to hold it alone.