I don't really understand myself

Well here i am in a website where i express my nonsense emotions. To begin with, I hate the way i act, look, and react. I always cry for no certain reason everyday, i kept track on how i cry and slowly noticing its been a normal thing to do. I don't really have that type of rich wealthy understanding parents, I never tried to open up to them because they're mainly the reason why i feel disappointed in myself. I never told anybody my sorrow. My parents would tell me that i have nothing to be depressed off because im a ordinary teenager but guess what I have feelings too. I would be always compared, be a disappoinment, misunderstood.

I will be always attached to people i feel comfortable with leading them leaving me. I am sick of being abandoned, replaced and ghosted. I keep my best to not lose people i love but they just leave.