i am that friend everyone wants

i am the friend who listens to everyone, i am a friend who is always there for them. but no one has ever been that friend to me. i tried to vent to one of my friends, they ignored me ig? ik i deleted every message related to my dramatic ass but they say they saw it when it popped up to their notifs and ask me if im okay? i said yes to know what they're going to do but they ignored me again. i also have a friend who always rant at me ofc i love to listen and gave them advices, but when i shared my exciting feeling when my crush somehow interacted with me they ignored me, left me in their inbox. see i just share my crush story but they didn't even want to read it, how am i supposed to vent my dramatic ass? u said u are always there if ever i have problems or like silliness but where are u? this comes to my realizations abt friendships, i am that friend to them but they're never been that friend to me. i am tired of always listening to everyone, why can't they do that to me?