Tired open to any conversation

hi everyone i’m just here to vent because i am only 20 years old but have no drive to continue living on or continue going to school i have no idea what i want to do in life and i had multiple dreams in the past but now it seems unreasonable to do it. i feel so alone because i don’t feel comfortable venting to other people bc i don’t want them to feel burdened by what i have to say. sometimes i feel like living is just so much work that i think it would be better to not but then i think of my family and the kind of pain i would cause them. so i don’t. but it is so hard.