life is hard

so im a teenager who has a social life , having online friends , duos , bfs , etc..i had this boy that i liked so much .. i've known him for 3 months , after some time he told me that he wants to be a duo with me..i agreed with so much joy not knowing what was gonna happen . after a day or two i don't exactly remember , he told me that he liked me sm and asked me to be together with him so i said yes without hesitating . we dated for like 5-6 days and after that he broke up with me and blocked me on that acc . ofc i had to know why and i logged in my old acc .. guess what i found ? .. him having another relationship after literaly 5 minutes .. i cried sm in that night that i almost died . i was so sad , my life was a mess . after some days , he wanted to leave social media so i wrote this paragraph for him '' dear d**** , i want to start with a thank you. thank you bc for a period u put a smile on my face with the only fact that you existed . you are wonderful , perfect and lovely . you always know to take care of me . always put a smile on my face and thats what i like . i don't have words to tell you how much i care about you.you are everything to me .thank you for everything you have done for me , for all of the beautiful memories with you , for all of the moments when i was annoying and u accepted me the way i was .u always have a way to make me happy . ❤️ ur the most wonderful man ever. i would give you the stars just to see you happy.even if we are not together anymore ur in my heart forever.u made me the happiest.ur erfect and wonderful . i love you so much and i will always do it no matter what will happen . ur the first who has made me happy and accep me how i am . i was so happy with you , you were everything . im sorry that i lied to you .. trust me ur perfect . u have showed me what love is . please don't leave , i can't imagine me without you here . u are the one who gives me power to stay here . u don't havee a motive to leave . tell me , who was here for me ? D**** . exactly , you . u took care of me . i refuse ti think that you are leaving . without you i don't exist . i love you so much and i don't really know what i have done to deserve you .u are still in my heart and i woould wait for you anytime with my arms opened. i would give you 1000 chances. i would give my life for you .'' and so much more but its personal life . he just told me ''ehh:(('' and i cried sm that i got to the hospital and almost fainted . thats how i got in this site . i needed so much a place to vent .