i feel like im surving rather than living

tbh I don't like this stuff. I hate the whole "we are here for u" and all that cringy stuff because it doesn't feel real or true. it's like when someone sees my scars they wanna take action. and it's like we should be caring for everyone whether or not u see something. i get lectured a lot by my parents every time i mess up. my phone is constantly being taken off me right now its for around a month so that's just great. i don't have a problem with my looks I'm a very lucky girl, however, we could all be a bit better. i just idk i tryed headspace everything and they all say the same things. I talk to the school nurse but nothing. i just feel numb tbh i feel like im surviving each day rather than living, I've had to have my friend stay over for around four nihts because ik if i have someone with me i cant sh and that's been really good however when she left its happened again. i just i suppose need advice and im sorry this is long its just i dont wanna tell anyone i know so here we are xo take care of yourself.

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Kodel · 26-30, M

I do definitely agree that people should care for each other all the time. I think in some circumstances, we get to the point where we only pay attention when things are bad. It just means we need to learn to pay attention more often.
As far as what you're going through, it sounds like nothing is making you happy at the moment. Or nothing is bringing you any joy. I'd say it would be worthwhile to do some searching. Find the things out there that bring you joy. School is probably not the place you'll find it, and mental health professionals only tell you how to handle problems within your mind. They can't really help with fulfillment. The best place to start with that, is to think of the things that you enjoy most in the world and think about what you could do in those veins that you'd be happy to do. It's a good place to start.

satinemalcolm · 16-17, F

@Kodel thankyou love, its hard when ur so restricted with evrything. xo

Kodel · 26-30, M

@satinemalcolm No worries sweetheart. It's often hard when you're feeling overbeared and not being given the freedom you need to develop and discover who you are. From what I can see though, you're already a lovely and kind young woman. Even with your parents making it harder, I have absolute faith you'll be able to find things that give you feeling back in everything. Much love to you. 🙂