I am a loser

I can't make conversations with people so making friends is always hard for me. When I finally make a good relationship with someone I start to care too hard and I feel bad because I'm scared they don't like me and I ruin everything. I guess I will never be able to make real friends. I feel so lonely. I have two friends but they hate me and they talk to me only when they don't have anyone else. I can't take this anymore.