im literally spooked

recently as yalls knows i had broken up with my gf so yay :’). i think i have moved on a bit more than before so thats pretty good :). but im just desperate for a relationship now and i hate that. i dont want to be but ofc i am :I. i dont even mnow if im ready for a relationship bc one im kinda too young… and two, im afraid of if i ever do end up with someone, im afraid of whatll happen next…