Why am i like this?

Why? Is there something wrong with me? Why are they like that to me? I thought i can trust all of them, turns out i can't, Im the one who helped you but when its my turn of needing help, you guys are not there to me. Am i worth it? I cant understand myself anymore, i even went out of relationship because of this situation. But at least she understand my reason not them. I know some are real becuase they are here for me, they wont judge me or anything. Pero bakit sa lahat nalang bakit yung mga naging kaibigan at mga taong sobrang mahal ko ay kinalimutan lang ako? Bakit? Ang sakit sobra masakit tignan ang lahat nang nangyayari saakin at sa kanila, Im suffering i need help, i need comfort, i need someonw to love me for who i am, even i domt trust my family anymore, I just cant anymore, my heart, it hurts so bad, my eyes are filling up with tears yet no one, no one came to help me when im at MY worst BUT I WAS THERE FOR THEM IM THE ONE WHO HWLPED THEM WITH THINGS THEY CANT HANDLE WHY? I JIST WISH I WASNT BORN GOD DAMMIT!