no self love

im so dissapointed in myself, i always do something wrong and i make so many mistakes. im always angry at people and i make them feel shit, my mental health is ruined because of the internet. people hurt me, even when i dont do anything to them. i feel like an invisible person and my family doesnt care about me. i try my best to be a good friend, bsf, gf, daughter, sister, student and yk. atp i wanna kms rn, i have tried several times but i always failed. i dont know what to do, nobody knows how bad im suffering and i get ghosted for no reason. everyone hates me and i also hate myself cuz im so ugly. i dont have a perfect body, face, personality and etc. i sh nearly everyday