I want to cry, but I can't

My life is just getting worse and worse. I'm in my first year of highschool and the pressure that's put on me is starting to be too much, even though the year has barely begun. I had 3 tests today, the first classes and I had mental breakdowns before, during and after each and every one of them. I think my body doesn't know how to cope with this, because something happened during the last test. I wasn't sure when it started or why, but I had a sharp pain under my right breast, it hurt if I breathed too deeply so I struggled with that during the whole test. I want to cry so bad right now, but I can't because I don't want my classmates and friends to think something is wrong with me, so I decided to look for an online platform to vent on instead. I'm currently locked in the bathroom just waiting to clam down...

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SW-User

It sounds like you are struggling with anxiety. Of course, you shouldn't self diagnose, you should speak to your parents and/or a doctor. Anxiety can manifest as real physical symptoms and can be quite debilitating, but it can be treated.

Mary21 · F

@SW-User I thought of talking to my parents, but even just the thought sends shivers down my spine. I can't, I simply can't talk to them. Thank you for sharing your thoughts though, I really appreciate it.

SW-User

@Mary21 If you can't talk to them then you may be able to approach your doctor on your own, or failing that there are confidential helplines available if you have a look online.

Mary21 · F

@SW-User Thanks for the info, I'll try to look online