I lost almost all my friends in 1 day
So, I won't say my name.
I'm a 14 year old Transgender dude and Gay, not like that matters but fine, okay.
2 days ago I went to a sleepover, it was nice and all and I put on my best mood. My friends back then knew that I was Gay and Trans. It was around 1AM and I was extremely tired. I went to my airbed and tried to sleep. My friends started throwing shoes, food, pillows and everything you could imagine at me. I couldn't breath, well not being able to breath sounds lame but I was wearing my binder too that night. I put everything off me and attempted to sleep again. They contintued throwing stuff at me.
I went downstairs at the house of the host and i called my oarents to pick me up. I went upstairs again and packed my stuff. The host asked where I was going and I said "I'm going home." on a breaking tone so far I remember. I almost teared up and went to the stairs when a friend asked whats wrong. (that friend who bullied me) And I replied a bit too harsh actually. I said: "It's none of your business".
So my parents arrived around 2AM and I told them everything what had happened, they already thought they were bad friends. I realized they had a bad impact on me with forcing me to 'hate' my parents and they even made me do things to myself that I didn't want to do.
It's the next day, 3PM, I got a message on my phone. It was from my best friend. I read the message and I felt my heart shatter. He said: "You're literally shit man, I'm dumping you, you're not worth wasting my time right now." Yes, he actually said it like that. Sadly, I knew this would happen, I knew he'll leave me. I blocked him directly and ended into a mental breakdown. Then, 10 minutes later, I got messages from all my friends at school, they all dumped me, they all left me there, just like they did in a city that I didn't knew back then.
That was it, I cried, I cried out loud in the first time in 5 years. Why haven't I noticed before, why didn't I notice how bad they were?
Sorry that I'm dropping this here, I really needed to let it out. thank you for reading.
I hope ur doing well, if u are or not, I'll hug you virtually.
Does anyone knows how to help me?
I'm a 14 year old Transgender dude and Gay, not like that matters but fine, okay.
2 days ago I went to a sleepover, it was nice and all and I put on my best mood. My friends back then knew that I was Gay and Trans. It was around 1AM and I was extremely tired. I went to my airbed and tried to sleep. My friends started throwing shoes, food, pillows and everything you could imagine at me. I couldn't breath, well not being able to breath sounds lame but I was wearing my binder too that night. I put everything off me and attempted to sleep again. They contintued throwing stuff at me.
I went downstairs at the house of the host and i called my oarents to pick me up. I went upstairs again and packed my stuff. The host asked where I was going and I said "I'm going home." on a breaking tone so far I remember. I almost teared up and went to the stairs when a friend asked whats wrong. (that friend who bullied me) And I replied a bit too harsh actually. I said: "It's none of your business".
So my parents arrived around 2AM and I told them everything what had happened, they already thought they were bad friends. I realized they had a bad impact on me with forcing me to 'hate' my parents and they even made me do things to myself that I didn't want to do.
It's the next day, 3PM, I got a message on my phone. It was from my best friend. I read the message and I felt my heart shatter. He said: "You're literally shit man, I'm dumping you, you're not worth wasting my time right now." Yes, he actually said it like that. Sadly, I knew this would happen, I knew he'll leave me. I blocked him directly and ended into a mental breakdown. Then, 10 minutes later, I got messages from all my friends at school, they all dumped me, they all left me there, just like they did in a city that I didn't knew back then.
That was it, I cried, I cried out loud in the first time in 5 years. Why haven't I noticed before, why didn't I notice how bad they were?
Sorry that I'm dropping this here, I really needed to let it out. thank you for reading.
I hope ur doing well, if u are or not, I'll hug you virtually.
Does anyone knows how to help me?
