I'll do anything for your love..

I did what I could do. I did my best didn't I? yet I failed to make you proud of me, I just wanted to see your smile again mom. But no matter what I do I always fail to do it. Maybe you are right im a nobody and a useless person. Even tho you said harmful words I still can't find the reason to hate you. Its hard, Life's hard I just need you to understand what im going through. But you never listen to anything I say and just say im dramatic. I just need you to listen for atleast a minute then I can get out of your life. I tried everything. I never heard you say “Congrats!” or ”I love you“ yet I hear you say those to everyone else but not me. It breaks me mom what else do I have to do? Im just 12 im still a kid, I don't know why you're being harsh to me I gave you everything. I gave you my whole heart filled with love, I saved up money to buy you a new phone, I confronted dad about his cheating yet it doesn't matter to you. For 12 years of my life I have been hiding behind my sister's shadow, I know you pretend like you care on my birthday or at special gathering events but knowing it just wants me to cry on the table. What else do I have to do mom? I'll do anything just to make you love me.