update #2 (fell in love with two boys)
not much has happened with r n b
sorta
i thought i might be losing feelings for r bc he felt more distant since getting a gf, but that was not the case. today i was jus really not doing great n he helped n i knew it hadn’t faded. he still means the world to me n i love him. it’s bc i love him that i’m respecting his relationship. his happiness matters to me so much more than my own n i would do anything to preserve it.
speaking of his gf, she added me on snap, which was interesting. nothing happened there, but she is really nice. i like her (:
on the topic of b, he was actually in my dream last night. it wasn’t anything bad, we jus talked finally, n it was nice. i enjoyed it n was genuinely upset when i woke up n realized it wasn’t real. but it was nice while it lasted.
other life updates—
i bleached my hair so now i’m blonde!! it’s not perfect, n i wanna make it lighter, but it’s def blonde at the very least.
one of my friends got mad at me for adding someone on snap?? n was like “i had one boundary, for you not to add her, and you broke that” yeah bc it wasn’t your boundary to set so maybe stop being such a controlling, narcissistic, toxic bitch??? n playing the victim in a situation when you are so clearly the toxic one is jus so gross. fake as hell. the worst part is that i have to rely on him as social support at lunch n one of my classes bc he’s my only friend in the class n i sit with him at lunch so idk what to do. i mean, i have other people at lunch, but i’m fucked in the class. i hate everyone there. i’m scared for monday, but luckily i only have to deal with that class for two more weeks.
exams are coming up. i’m really scared for my algebra two exam, apparently it’s gonna be one of the longest i ever take n my teacher doesn’t expect us to finish it in less than two hours. i love math but not for two straight hours… wish me luck pls
oh, also, i’ve started taking lexapro n was evaluated for adhd. dunno the results on the adhd eval yet n the lexapro has been uneventful. i think it’s helping?? i didn’t take it yesterday or today n i had a mild breakdown so i truly do not know
anyway yeah, that’s the current life update. see y’all in the next one (:
sorta
i thought i might be losing feelings for r bc he felt more distant since getting a gf, but that was not the case. today i was jus really not doing great n he helped n i knew it hadn’t faded. he still means the world to me n i love him. it’s bc i love him that i’m respecting his relationship. his happiness matters to me so much more than my own n i would do anything to preserve it.
speaking of his gf, she added me on snap, which was interesting. nothing happened there, but she is really nice. i like her (:
on the topic of b, he was actually in my dream last night. it wasn’t anything bad, we jus talked finally, n it was nice. i enjoyed it n was genuinely upset when i woke up n realized it wasn’t real. but it was nice while it lasted.
other life updates—
i bleached my hair so now i’m blonde!! it’s not perfect, n i wanna make it lighter, but it’s def blonde at the very least.
one of my friends got mad at me for adding someone on snap?? n was like “i had one boundary, for you not to add her, and you broke that” yeah bc it wasn’t your boundary to set so maybe stop being such a controlling, narcissistic, toxic bitch??? n playing the victim in a situation when you are so clearly the toxic one is jus so gross. fake as hell. the worst part is that i have to rely on him as social support at lunch n one of my classes bc he’s my only friend in the class n i sit with him at lunch so idk what to do. i mean, i have other people at lunch, but i’m fucked in the class. i hate everyone there. i’m scared for monday, but luckily i only have to deal with that class for two more weeks.
exams are coming up. i’m really scared for my algebra two exam, apparently it’s gonna be one of the longest i ever take n my teacher doesn’t expect us to finish it in less than two hours. i love math but not for two straight hours… wish me luck pls
oh, also, i’ve started taking lexapro n was evaluated for adhd. dunno the results on the adhd eval yet n the lexapro has been uneventful. i think it’s helping?? i didn’t take it yesterday or today n i had a mild breakdown so i truly do not know
anyway yeah, that’s the current life update. see y’all in the next one (:
