Imagine awakening one day just to realise that you are 33 years old, have 6 dependent to take care of, not much of a career, a personality disorder to live with and breathtaking communication impairments as well.

That's exactly what happened to me 11 years ago. The point being,

You can not really control what your mom chooses to do but the best thing for you is to get yourself out of that situation so that you do not get abused yourself

You’re sure it wasn’t some rough sex? Anyways, it looks like your mom needs more help than you do.

I’m sorry you’re going through this and that no one is listening. You are not ill but trapped. Your mom needs to step up or maybe it’s time to call the police.

Follow your intuition. This is happening. If you don’t make the change you want to happen happen… then you will keep sinking deeper and deeper in your own fears

I'm sorry you are stressing...for good reason too. I'm sorry your mum is in denial...
Take care of yourself. Blessings

I can’t blame you for thinking that. maybe talk to someone online about these feelings?im just suggesting stuff

Sounds like he is the one that was mentally ill, and caused psychological damage to the two of you

Call the police and get him arrested. Get a restraining order put on him

I'm so sorry, this must be terrifying.

Please reach out to police, and research women's shelters in your area. If you're not sure where to start, call the hospital and/or the police to get a start on where to recieve support can help 💙 you deserve to be safe

You know what you heard and you know that he walked in on you when showering. You don't need to doubt that unless you have any reason to believe that you're delusional. Don't doubt yourself.