some brain farts cause Im bored af

I came here to vent cause I felt that I have no one to talk to, My friends are not in the right place to vent to right now cause I know they are also going through something and well I can burden them with my woes since mine is not as haevy as theirs I guess (cliche I know) but sometimes I just wish they listen to me too jsut how much I listen to them. nowadays its like talking to no one. I know they have they're dealing with their lives and I understand that fully that's why at times it felt like I was talking to a wall cause no one is listening. bu soemtimes yeah I wished to be heard too. Its kinda selfish so yeah Im here venting here instead XD. I dont even know what my problem is I just felt so alone. we used to talk a lot and now our chatroom is a deadzone and i m the only one starting conversations and if im lucky theyre going to reply or talk to me for awhile and the conversation will just stop. I guess its really okay theyre really jus dealing with bad stuff or theyre just not in the mood to talk.. my anxiety is just telling me that they might not like me anymore. which is fine I guess its really up to them