Just Tired

I’ve been in this stagnant middle ground for at least a year now and it’s so frustrating. I know realistically I cannot move forward with any of my dreams or aspirations. That stuff doesn’t happen to just anyone and I’m not anyone. I’ve tried to get jobs that I feel I can try to work through my undiagnosed social anxiety with but nobody wants me. That’s probably because I’m a highschool dropout. On top of that, family life is so stressful and confusing rn. I don’t really have any friends irl that I can talk to and Im not super close with any of my online friends rn either + I’m not that trusting of anyone that much anymore due to past experiences (and some experiences with current friends). I’ve somehow been cursed with multiple “rare” health crap that I need to get figured out but because it’s so unknown in the medical field it’s so easy to get invalidated or looked over. My mental health has been shot for awhile now. To the point of depression and just not wanting to be here anymore. I don’t see a point in all this. Please don’t tell me it’s get better because that’s all anyone says and it doesn’t help nor is it true. It’s just all building up and idk what to do.

(Please no religious answers, I’m not religious. Also please do not assume that I don’t ask for help from my family).