What should I do ?
I haven’t made a post like that before so I’m sorry if I make something wrong .
I’m not really sure we’re to start actually and I hope this don’t sounds to cringe, anyways a year and a half ago , I assume , I accidentally felt in love with my teacher which was stupid , but mostly like happened because I don’t have a father . However he eventually started liking me too , or he groomed me, not sure after all. We meet up after school and tbh he is a pretty weird guy with weird political views.
I’m now pretty traumatized after everything that happened, and left me in trauma and extreme anxiety and stress. I feel like I’m nothing without him but I’m the other side I don’t want to ever see him again. Surviving the school days is like hell , for many reasons first because I’m in constant fear whenever I see him , I sometimes literally just run away because of how traumatized I am ( which made me almost break my arm because I feel down the stairs ) one time he saw me running away from him and oh boy he was so mad. He also either treats me like a a piece of shit or is extremely horny forwards me .
My mom won’t allow to change schools but still being here and experience extreme high levels of anxiety on a daily basis , which are only somewhat bearable because of nicotine ,is truly painful. I also got diagnosed with depression a while ago and I went to therapy but mainly because my mom saw the huge scar on my arm ( I felt really down and really just wanted to disappear from this world ) however it was pretty useless.
I feel so lost without him but being with him is even worsen. I don’t have friends so that’s why im posting this here , I just really wanted to let this go off my chest . Thanks for reading of you did , I truly appreciate it <3 and you have to say anything just thanks for reading <3
Also im not a native speaker btw
I’m not really sure we’re to start actually and I hope this don’t sounds to cringe, anyways a year and a half ago , I assume , I accidentally felt in love with my teacher which was stupid , but mostly like happened because I don’t have a father . However he eventually started liking me too , or he groomed me, not sure after all. We meet up after school and tbh he is a pretty weird guy with weird political views.
I’m now pretty traumatized after everything that happened, and left me in trauma and extreme anxiety and stress. I feel like I’m nothing without him but I’m the other side I don’t want to ever see him again. Surviving the school days is like hell , for many reasons first because I’m in constant fear whenever I see him , I sometimes literally just run away because of how traumatized I am ( which made me almost break my arm because I feel down the stairs ) one time he saw me running away from him and oh boy he was so mad. He also either treats me like a a piece of shit or is extremely horny forwards me .
My mom won’t allow to change schools but still being here and experience extreme high levels of anxiety on a daily basis , which are only somewhat bearable because of nicotine ,is truly painful. I also got diagnosed with depression a while ago and I went to therapy but mainly because my mom saw the huge scar on my arm ( I felt really down and really just wanted to disappear from this world ) however it was pretty useless.
I feel so lost without him but being with him is even worsen. I don’t have friends so that’s why im posting this here , I just really wanted to let this go off my chest . Thanks for reading of you did , I truly appreciate it <3 and you have to say anything just thanks for reading <3
Also im not a native speaker btw
