I don’t want my father in my life anymore

Sometimes I wish I didn’t had a father. He’s always been a fucking moron cant believe he left his ex girlfriend throwing her to the ground ignoring her and leaving her and then regretting it and saying it in front of his wife. Always getting mad at me and my mom and yelling like bro why tf is this guy even alive . Making me insecure thanks a lot moron . I’ve gotten insecure about my looks thanks to my father . What was the point of telling me I should tie my hair up because I look so ugly and why tf are u repeating that I’m ugly shut the fuck up. He should’ve die sooner then his parents . I cant believe his parents got this fucking dickhead instead of someone who doesn’t make people insecure . Always been the same . Always yelling every single day how many headaches do I need handle. Hopefully this bitch dies I don’t want him in my life anymore I don’t remember a day he has save me in any kind of situations or caring about me then his stupid fucking work. I thought of many times to kms but never did. He ruins my whole life. This fucking idiot thinks just because I’m born in Europe I’m gonna be smart fucking kid like bro I don’t know everything when I don’t know how to do it he yells at me how don’t u know just this thing , shut the fuck up why don’t u know how to do are you so fucking stupid that u cant do this stop yelling at me . Making me insecure was enough. My wish is for him to die I never want to see him in my life again . He’s been always the same never changes .