I hate school

Everyone sucks in School I don't fit in I hate everything there,
I feel like an outcast I want to be like them too I don't want to be that weird anime kid no one talks to it's annoying I want to kill all of them
They want to see me suffer... It'll be fine if i was like the smartest kid but I'm just above average... What's worse is that I'm treated like a doormat I'm just that one kid with the good hotspot wifi or that one kid who can draw really well. I do have friends but are they even my friends?? I feel like I went into their duo or something if they don't like me why hangout with me?? Don't even lie to me it's so annoying I hate everyone I want to kill myself