my bestfriend.
i dont know what to do
i miss my person so much even if they dont consider me theirs i will always consider her my bsf n ik writing this will just make memore upset but i need to get it off my chest. I dont know jow to feel i dont want to explain everything because id jusr never shut up but our friendship has got to be the most confusing thing ever, shes my bestfriend my twin flame my soulmaye in my eyes but now thinking abt it she doesnt see me as her bsf or anything like that. im just one of her fun friends to hang around with . i seriously d pop pn get it im always the second option even tho she tells me how much she loves me n apprieciates me but then goes to holly. holly: her ‘proper’ bsf but yet still slags her off to me… does it mak sense? not to me but whatev we move
you call her toxic
you say u dont wanna be her bsf
you argue all the time
you leave me out j for her
i dont get it
you isolate yourself from everything and everyone just because holly is here
to everyone else they dont care that much but to me i have always cared and i always will i t genuinly makes my heart sink to my stomach just thinking and trying to accept the favt im not ur first choice and i never have been and i never will be , thats just whats making me so upst.
c even tho ur nice to me you don’t purposely shun me to make me feel upset but its just a me problem it hurts to know im not ur first choice but then again why should i be, im not that special im hust a mentally ill girl wjos trying to survive but slowly losing herself every day
i miss my person so much even if they dont consider me theirs i will always consider her my bsf n ik writing this will just make memore upset but i need to get it off my chest. I dont know jow to feel i dont want to explain everything because id jusr never shut up but our friendship has got to be the most confusing thing ever, shes my bestfriend my twin flame my soulmaye in my eyes but now thinking abt it she doesnt see me as her bsf or anything like that. im just one of her fun friends to hang around with . i seriously d pop pn get it im always the second option even tho she tells me how much she loves me n apprieciates me but then goes to holly. holly: her ‘proper’ bsf but yet still slags her off to me… does it mak sense? not to me but whatev we move
you call her toxic
you say u dont wanna be her bsf
you argue all the time
you leave me out j for her
i dont get it
you isolate yourself from everything and everyone just because holly is here
to everyone else they dont care that much but to me i have always cared and i always will i t genuinly makes my heart sink to my stomach just thinking and trying to accept the favt im not ur first choice and i never have been and i never will be , thats just whats making me so upst.
c even tho ur nice to me you don’t purposely shun me to make me feel upset but its just a me problem it hurts to know im not ur first choice but then again why should i be, im not that special im hust a mentally ill girl wjos trying to survive but slowly losing herself every day
18-21, F
