What do I do ?

I came to her I told her I was having a shit week and was feeling depressed my exact words . Want to know her response word for word ? I'll tell you I quote from the voice message."Yeah I'm just out of school there there's been shit going on so I haven't been able to talk to anyone. Yolo I have music practice and then arch club straight after so that's going to be really fun. I have arch club today,Which I'm really excited for get my mind off stuff it's a Thursday" what type of person not even friend pulls that shit I literally say I've been feeling depressed and she goes and says that. I honestly shouldn't be surprised she keeps hurting me at first I thought it was my fault I was overly sensitive but after that no it's all her. I cried after that I was crying before but that made me realise that this person who I called one of my closest friends could see me struggling who I literally told that I needed to talk to say that shit. I don't know maybe im the problem.I just hate the way I keep going back to her for comfort she is my oldest friend and I feel like I owe it to her to keep her my friend because she put up with me for so long. But I realised she didn't do anything that a normal friend would do she did less I don't know how to stop talking to her because she is closer with all my friends and I'm afraid to be alone. I can't tell anyone this because it's my fault I keep going to her even though she couldn't say it more clearly that she doesn't give a shit about me.

WhateverWorks · 36-40

It’s hard to say what to make of this. People use the term depressed so nonchalantly these days. They may not realize you are referring to being legitimately depressed. You also mentioned then putting up with you for so long? i’m not sure if that’s low self-esteem talking or that you’ve been struggling with mental health or drama for a long time. if you’ve had a lot of issues for a long time then there is the possibility they’re feeling burnt on trying to be supportive. Even if that isn’t the case, you’re not getting the support you need from this person. It is definitely time to make some new friends who are better at emotional support. Doesn’t necessarily mean you have to drop this friend though. They’re just not a good fit for what you need. Don’t set yourself up for feeling even worse by going again and again to somebody who either can’t or won’t give you what you need. If you’re feeling too depressed to make new friends then you gotta connect with a good mental health counselor who can help you to start addressing why you’ve been depressed. 💜