touch me all you want nobody cares anyways

Ever since i was a kid everyone saw me as a pray. Nobody liked me. When i first came to usa i didn't know Inglish and had alot of struggs. A boy tryed to touch me but i didn't know how to inform others and thought i would be just judged if i told my parents so i kept quite. When i was in 2nd grade a girl used to hit me. She left a huge truama on me by choking me. The worst part is i told someone and they just laughed. I tried to speak but ever time i only got a "oh". When i was 8 my uncle/brother touched me near my thigh erea and once even invited me to bed! I was 8!!! In kindergarten the teachers used to scream at me for doing the littlest mistake! The worst part is all the girls hated me. They did horrible things to me like even slapping me. When i was only 6. I try my best to hide it all. But every time i say something about it they just stare. Like am i some sort of joke!? Im super insecure now. I hate every inch of myself. Because of my looks people think im weak. Or my personality? I need awnsers. I try to vent to my mother but she allways end up saying "its because your growing" LIKE STFU. nobody cares about me! Nobody stays with me! I dont wanna be alone anymore☹️ what eals do i need to do? I trued so many times! I just wanna be happy.

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sasanack · 61-69, M

hey munchkin, so you had a really rough start to life no kid should have to go through any of that , I also wonder how old you really are right now,i also wonder if you would prefer to talk about this in private its up to it is kind of personal. It sounds like you fell through all the safety stops. your teachers ,and parents let you down im sure it was not intentional, but that does nt make it less traumatic for you, nor is it an excuse for them, repairing past trauma is way harder than dealing with something that is current. I feel for you cos I experienced something similar when your a child and your not heard by the very people that are supposed to love and protect you,it opens up another can worms on top of the hurt you have already experienced. i leave it there if you want to talk more to me just message me , take care munchkin

Ryderbike

Join a martial arts club. It will give you focus, confidence and training

MasterofNone · 26-30, M

What is your predominant emotion? Do you feel angry at yourself because you can't stop people from taking advantage of you?
Do you feel guilty when you do not give others what they want from you even if that's wrong or unbalanced? Or do you feel needy as in would it be alright if nobody bothered you but nobody cared about you either?

Mktonght · 61-69, M

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Wow, I am so sorry that your life so far has been a terrible mess.
Do you like at home with a family?
I am not sure how I can be any help, but if you would like to chat you can message me.

AuRevoir · 36-40, M

You could try filing a police report and restraining order against the worst offenders.. such as the uncle..

HannibalMontanimal · 26-30, M

Fight back

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