Cheater cheater 🙄

My boyfriend, cheated. After reassuring me time and time again. Even on the days of the incidents. When i finally got proof, he told me he didnt have an excuse. Not that he was sorry, he didnt have a reason. My heart has ached so much. Ive been moody and irritable. I feel like im losing myself back to the rage i used to protect myself. I dont know what to feel