i think im in love with someone who has a girlfriend
im writing this all lowercase sorry if that bothers anyone.
im in high school. we've been in the same class since freshman year but i didnt really notice him before. i knew he was there, we just never interacted. like. at all. but by pure coincidence, we crossed paths during a shared free period in february. i just sat down and started talking to him. this lasted for five days. then he wasn't there anymore. at first, it didnt bother me, because i didnt realize i actually really liked him. i found out things i had no idea about him before. and i felt more at home than id ever felt in my entire life.
since then, our interactions have been pretty limited. he's not really the type to talk a lot to people, sort of introverted, but he always talks to me when i talk to him. and i love everything about him. i feel emotional just writing this.
he got a girlfriend in march. and the thing is, ive actually been through this before. i was in love with one of my best friends, let's call him Q, for two years, until last year i finally learned how to get over it and move on when Q got a girlfriend (best thing that ever happened to me. now Q and i are amazing friends). but that was easier than this, because i was friends with him (right? that makes sense.)
so in march, it sort of broke me apart a little, and i didnt expect that. maybe it was also because Q only got a girlfriend two years after i got to know him, and this guy (the one i like now) got a girlfriend less than two months after i'd met him. i had just started to let myself believe, but it was pure fantasy.
now its the fall, and nothing about my feelings have changed. should i try harder to get to know him? or should i try to stay as far away from him as possible? i get the feeling we could be great friends. but it might be too late. i have no romantic experience with anyone so i am at a loss... what is the right thing to do here?
and seriously: help. how do i move on? im in love with him and honestly... i think im just yearning for someone else's love. it could be anyone at this point. im tired of falling for people who dont choose me. its gonna kill me someday.
im in high school. we've been in the same class since freshman year but i didnt really notice him before. i knew he was there, we just never interacted. like. at all. but by pure coincidence, we crossed paths during a shared free period in february. i just sat down and started talking to him. this lasted for five days. then he wasn't there anymore. at first, it didnt bother me, because i didnt realize i actually really liked him. i found out things i had no idea about him before. and i felt more at home than id ever felt in my entire life.
since then, our interactions have been pretty limited. he's not really the type to talk a lot to people, sort of introverted, but he always talks to me when i talk to him. and i love everything about him. i feel emotional just writing this.
he got a girlfriend in march. and the thing is, ive actually been through this before. i was in love with one of my best friends, let's call him Q, for two years, until last year i finally learned how to get over it and move on when Q got a girlfriend (best thing that ever happened to me. now Q and i are amazing friends). but that was easier than this, because i was friends with him (right? that makes sense.)
so in march, it sort of broke me apart a little, and i didnt expect that. maybe it was also because Q only got a girlfriend two years after i got to know him, and this guy (the one i like now) got a girlfriend less than two months after i'd met him. i had just started to let myself believe, but it was pure fantasy.
now its the fall, and nothing about my feelings have changed. should i try harder to get to know him? or should i try to stay as far away from him as possible? i get the feeling we could be great friends. but it might be too late. i have no romantic experience with anyone so i am at a loss... what is the right thing to do here?
and seriously: help. how do i move on? im in love with him and honestly... i think im just yearning for someone else's love. it could be anyone at this point. im tired of falling for people who dont choose me. its gonna kill me someday.
18-21, F
