bro moving sux af

i moved to this shitty town a year ago. im so over putting up with other's problems. i get that he was struggling, i feel bad for him yes, but me? im irrelevant, aren't i. my parents always say its gonna be hard for all of us, yes i know. adjusting and money problems isnt the best at all, but they have eachother, i have no one. they always act as if im overreacting and then they wonder why i dont open up. man, i wish i had a sibling, stuff would be less lonely, i would finally have a shoulder to cry on. im always the black sheep, i hate it. i get judged for crying alone at night, but they're the cause. i'm scared. i'm scared of losing myself, i'm scared of being judged, i'm scared. i'm fr so scared about being alone, which is exactly what i am right now, lonely and alone.