i miss my friends
me and my friends have been together for 8 years and that's probably the reason why we've started to grow so distant
today's my friend's birthday, and she's probably the only one who still cares about our friendship other than me. back then, we created a tradition where we'd make presentations and paragraphs for someone who had a birthday in our friend group, and now, we haven't been preserving it. except for me, though. every year, I make a birthday presentation for them, whereas they don't even make one for me and the others. maybe because we've gotten older, or maybe it's because they're busy with their other friend groups
it's childish, but that isn't the only reason, of course. when I vent to them, they leave me on seen. when I have something that I'm excited about and tell them about it, of course, they leave me on seen again.
the whole day, the word "why?" is stuck in my head. "is it because they find me annoying? am I not worth their time anymore?" no one would know how many times my head has repeated that very sentence, even I don't know anymore.
I need to know. how can I make us closer again? I miss them
today's my friend's birthday, and she's probably the only one who still cares about our friendship other than me. back then, we created a tradition where we'd make presentations and paragraphs for someone who had a birthday in our friend group, and now, we haven't been preserving it. except for me, though. every year, I make a birthday presentation for them, whereas they don't even make one for me and the others. maybe because we've gotten older, or maybe it's because they're busy with their other friend groups
it's childish, but that isn't the only reason, of course. when I vent to them, they leave me on seen. when I have something that I'm excited about and tell them about it, of course, they leave me on seen again.
the whole day, the word "why?" is stuck in my head. "is it because they find me annoying? am I not worth their time anymore?" no one would know how many times my head has repeated that very sentence, even I don't know anymore.
I need to know. how can I make us closer again? I miss them
