My bestfriend

Ive known him all my life but it all came down in just a few months. Ive known him sense I was 4 and he was 3 when I moved to America he was one of the first people I met we both had crushes on eachother through out our lives tho we never dated we never even kissed. I used to sleep over at his house sometimes and I loved his dog, but we started becoming distant at school he started ignoring me. Once it got to the weekend he acted normal and so did I we were neighbors so he couldnt really ignore me at the time plus our parents were friends too and we normally ate dinner at there house during the weekend. Once covid started he had moved and we had no way to talk to eachother after around 4 months of covid I moved to portugal but we started talking very little on snapchat it was better then nothing but soon our parents stopped being friends and his mom made me block him Its been around 3 years since Ive last seen him in person and 2 years sence ive talked to him I still cry about him everyday because I love him, not as a lover as my bestfriend, hes the only person ive every actually loved and I cant even talk to him or see him.