I Need to Vent

I want to throw up so badly. I didn't even eat that much but I can't handle it. I'm the heaviest I've ever been. My dr thinks its from the medicine (which I am currently about to switch to a new one), but regardless, I am freaking out. I'm only going to eat one meal a day, even though I was advised not to... because I can't deal with this weight. ..

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Syktur · 26-30, M

I know my words aren't going to mean anything from a stranger, but please consider doing things differently. Get on the new medication and see how that works. Please don't blame this on yourself right now. Don't purge. Take it from someone who knows - I had bulimia for 6.5-7 years, and I feel the damage daily. If you want to start losing weight, do something different. Smart with small goals. It makes things easier. Go for 10 minute walks at first, just 10 minutes. If that's not enough, do 20, build up from there. Just, please take care of yourself. I know the pain. And it is devastating.

DisillusionedWaves · 26-30

I'm sorry you've also dealt with an eating disorder. That's rough. I know that I need to just change the meds, see how that goes, and take goals, but it's so hard. I just think of how drastic results I got when I starved, and it's so tempting to do it that way. :(

Syktur · 26-30, M

@jadeddivinity: But you also have to remember that what you see when you starve yourself aren't real results. It's the result of you hurting yourself.

DisillusionedWaves · 26-30

@svanthor: You're right. I guess in a way I'm trying to hurt myself. :l

Syktur · 26-30, M

@jadeddivinity: Just hang in there, and let me know if you ever need to talk to someone.

DisillusionedWaves · 26-30

@svanthor: Thanks, man, I appreciate it.