Ive become such a pathetic mess

Ive sunk to some low lows as of late like stealing more frequently and letting people use me so i can get free drugs or the newest thing ive figured out is walking up and down the main road stopping at every gas station picking through all the trash cans for bottles. Ive made decent money doing that. I used to go through the park but i wasnt getting much but that one time i stole bottles from a homeless person by the park bathroom