Venting about what I feel
I don't know I have a lot of problems lately and I think I might end up writing a book jk
Well you see I want to die since I find this life my life is full of cruelty and they're perfect and I'm a failure. Mom and dad was didn't love each other since we weren't Born why did mom didn't divorce? it'd because she was pregnant at that time on my big brother and she doesn't want us to feel like no father figure etc. My dad's a jerk and bad person my mom's a hypocrite. Always blabbering about everything I'm getting tired. It sucks like...what If I killed my self my dad would even care I mean hes a bad person, no shame, and my mental health is so in mess rn I have personality disorders and depression and anxiety, it's SUCKS how my old self thinks everything lasts forever when nothing really lasts forever example my family happy but I didn't knew they were faking it so our childhood is just fine that was on age 4/5/6 but one day it just really broke. I came home saw my parents fighting and...it keep going day by day it happened I changed that honor kid is now a failure! Great...I felt numb after all of those things happened to my life now I'm 12 trying to be alive since I'm just sick of my life not gonna lie these words etc they're not enough on what I feel it just hurts so much all of this grief/burden I carry and idk if I Can still survive I'm planning to kill myself
Well you see I want to die since I find this life my life is full of cruelty and they're perfect and I'm a failure. Mom and dad was didn't love each other since we weren't Born why did mom didn't divorce? it'd because she was pregnant at that time on my big brother and she doesn't want us to feel like no father figure etc. My dad's a jerk and bad person my mom's a hypocrite. Always blabbering about everything I'm getting tired. It sucks like...what If I killed my self my dad would even care I mean hes a bad person, no shame, and my mental health is so in mess rn I have personality disorders and depression and anxiety, it's SUCKS how my old self thinks everything lasts forever when nothing really lasts forever example my family happy but I didn't knew they were faking it so our childhood is just fine that was on age 4/5/6 but one day it just really broke. I came home saw my parents fighting and...it keep going day by day it happened I changed that honor kid is now a failure! Great...I felt numb after all of those things happened to my life now I'm 12 trying to be alive since I'm just sick of my life not gonna lie these words etc they're not enough on what I feel it just hurts so much all of this grief/burden I carry and idk if I Can still survive I'm planning to kill myself
