continuing living like this

warning this is just me rambling to myself, but feel free to comment :)

to be honest i don’t really know if i can live like i do. with all that’s going on with me pressure gets to you, even when ur used to it. i’ve cracked before, and every time i ever did i’ve gotten stronger and stronger but even my strength can’t compete with my fears. if it’s gonna be like it, is it really worth all the trouble? if it’s not doing anything, then what’s the point in living in general, let alone living as i usually do?