i understand the way you feel because i feel the same. You are not an attention seeker or anything. I know that its really hard to talk about your personal problems but maybe you should talk to your parents about your feelings. I would suggest you to go to a therapist. remember that you are loved and important<3 i hope u get better soon :)

i do relate to this and im so sorry you have to go thru this.
if you need to talk to someone,tell me and ill drop my discord <3 take care

I relate